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I said I had one more to do and that's Tali'Zorah vas Normandy. I choose "vas Normandy" because they tried to shame her with that name and she embraced it. The name would them become a prestigious one.
Initially, I was going to do one of those posing pics with her holding a gun or sending off a combat drone or hacking a Geth. I was suddenly inspired by this one. It's homage to my first run with Mass Effect 3 when I failed to broker peace between the Quarians and Geth. I chose for Legion to upload the code because I felt the Quarians had continuously been the aggressors and chose war when they could have had peace. What I DIDN'T know was that the Geth would use that opportunity to eradicate the Quarians.
That was, by far, the most emotional and tragic moment in my gaming history. I watched the skies light up in flames as the Admirables screamed over the radio air waves while their ships were being destroyed - civilians and all. Tali stood there and watched in horror.
Tali had been there for me since the start. She was on her pilgrimage and had no reason to follow me while I chased a rogue Spectre. She gave me evidence to incriminate him and followed me to the end.
Mass Effect 2, human colonies were being attacked and humans abducted by The Collectors. This was a human problem and the other races, through The Council, made it abundantly clear. Even Rex, Liara and Ash turned me down but Tali joined my mission. It had nothing to do with her or her people and she left her people to join on what she knew was a suicide mission.
Every crazy move I did on that mission, she believed in me. She trusted me. I worked with Cerberus. I gave Vitor to Cerberus. I took Legion on board. All things she strongly was against and yet she stuck with me. "I trust you, Shepard". And back to work she went.
When she was stripped of her name, "Tali Zorrah nar Rayya" and called "Tali Zorah vas Normandy", she never carried the name with shame. Mass Effect 3 she left the Floatila to come with me on me to face The Reapers. This time, her people were in the middle of a war with the Geth and she abandoned them for me.
When it came crunch time and Legion asked to upload the code, she begged me not to do it. I'll never forget it. "Shepard. I'm begging you. Don't do this." Her voice trembled with desperation. She could have pulled a gun me or killed me - Legion would have if I chose the Quarians - but she didn't so much as threaten me. She loved me that much. She loved me TOO much. And I betrayed her. I betrayed my greatest friend and destroyed her.
At that moment, in complete disbelief of what she was seeing, the skies raining fragments of her people with the thunderous sound their screams accompanying the storm of their destruction, she gave up. She took off her helmet (which protects her from bacterial infection that is fatal, effectively committing suicide and declaring "what's the point of living?") and just dropped off the cliff.
I ran to her to catch her but I was too late. I watched her fall to her death. Her last words were words were ones of pain - last sound I heard from her was weeping - and she died without her closest friends and comrades ever seeing so much as a smile on her face.
Broken, I walked in shameful victory. I had killed my third Reaper but this time I really wished it had lost. My only insufficient consolation was that she died on her homeworld, Rannoch. It is on her homeworld that I will leave her. I did not deserve to so much as retrieve her body or keep her helmet in remembrance. I was unworthy of such an honour.
That is the story of my greatest regret and failure in my gaming history. It is also the most emotional scene I've seen any multimedia have. I was literally in depression for a week after this. It really broke me.
Rest in Peace, Tali'Zorah nar Rayya. Truly, I did not deserve your friendship, your love or your loyalty. Stopping The Reapers did not make the pain more tolerable and it is because of your sacrifice that I chose to destroy the TReapers. You died so we can achieve one thing: Destroy The Reapers. Not "Control them" and not synthesis - destroy them. And destroy them I did.
Don't know if Shepard died or not, considering Indoctrination Theory. The breath I took could easily have been a dying one. Should it have been, I will see you at the bar Garrus spoke of, great friend.
That is, of course, if you will have me.
Keelah Se'lai, dear friend. Keelah Se'lai